Dejavu

When 'it' happened, reminds me of 23rd March 2002.

In need of Alien Invasion.

Today is the day I wish an individual gets wiped out from the earth surface.

And I really do mean it.

Retribution?

I won't laugh but I still remember what you said. It's deeply etched in my mind.

I'm just proud of my brother, because in a situation like that. He took it like a man!

Focus, keep in focus...

I MUST! I must keep focus or I stray away from my target.

Yesterday, was the day my dollars and sense went out of the windows.

Telling myself "No regrets cos the brother is happy!" :)

Happy Birthday Bro! *hugs* *tickles*

On cruise mode.

Crap result from Arsenal. Pure pure crap!
I have given up on that we will somehow-get-a-goal-in-second-half mentality. It's like going through 93 mins of major time wasting. At the end of it with a trail 'WTF?!' playing in my head. I know it's bettter off to just skip the game than keep moaning about it but that's me. I love it too much even if it hurts!

Hardly ever got me time for myself nowadays, prolly I got pre-occupied with things...Or that cos I am more accessible to my friends now, it's much easier to plan meetup with friends. I used to lead a life of a hermit who work in far flung places.

I am going to watch The Day The Earth Stood Still tomorrow. Got wee bit of crush now after watching him in Lake House this afternoon. Hahahaha....so woody!

Mulling over what I can buy with the extra dosh, but a recent chat with a colleague decided that holding it back until late January will be a smarter move as am not too sure about my future here since I'm on contract basis. Wait till the new contract to arrive, only then can spend $$ hahaha.

Went watch gazing a couple of days back... saw a few which I really like. Here's hoping they keep me longer. Keep me in your duaas. I want to stay in this job for a bit longer. I am appreciating the place, the people and of course the work. :)

My impromptu holiday is on.

The Cuz called me to say she purchased the tickets for KL on Christmas Day. Funny, how a casual 'OK' managed to materialize.

This time a long trip, 4 days in KL... imagine the things I'm gonna stuff myself with!!!

Poxy Cunts unite to irritate me today.

Firstly,

At the final whistle, Ronaldo ran off the pitch without shaking hands with any
of his opponents, although he was later persuaded to swap shirts with Robert
Pires, the former Arsenal winger.

-> Why did he even bother to swap shirts?? Why lah why?? Come on Bobby, please reserve some dignity for yourself!

Secondly,

Ferguson also strayed from managerial convention by apologising on behalf of
Rooney for the forward’s attempts to deceive the referee by diving, although he
could not resist the opportunity to have a dig at Pires.
“It was
uncharacteristic of Wayne,” Ferguson said. “He apologised to me afterwards and
said he didn’t mean to do that. He said that he thought the defender was going
to challenge him and was expecting the challenge. It was unfortunate really. I
think he has been watching Robert Pires too much. At least he apologised to the
Villarreal players. You would never see Pires do that.”

-> Yaaaaah right, you poxy bastard cunt! A bit rich coming from you, hypocritical twat! Obviously gone senile, kenapa lah team coach tak meletop smlm. Aman dunia.

Another fluff entry.

Still on the fingernails issue...

Omg! Juju has the prettiest fingernails/fingers ever lah...like a lady.

Warning: Fluff Entry.

Was browsing when I came across a picure of Cesc's fingers. I have to say, I am disappointed to see Le Capitan has oogly fingernails. Short and oblong-ish. Oh well, as they say, God is fair. He makes Cesc a kick-ass soccer player, intelligent, dork-ishly cute and wealthy at such young age but yet bestowed upon him oogly nails. Heh.

Water vapour formed in my tumbler.

It's hard to be truly truly happy for our new captain. As much as I am loving/glad/estactic over the new captain, I can't help feeling sorry for him. Being thrown in into the deep and expected to steer a shambling ship out of troubled waters. And he's only 21. Not that I think he can't do it, in fact I think he will rise for the challenge. We all know he's a capable and intelligent boy and he loves Arsenal (a proper gooner) but I can't help thinking that he's new role will stretch him like an overused handiplast. And we know what happened to handiplast that lost their adhesives, alas! all know how tough he is! So I wish him all the best, I can't wait to cheer them on to ride out this turbulent times.

And to YOU too. I know how things are kinda taking it's toll on you. Hang in there, babe! I go by the cliched "what can't kill us, can only make us stronger!". You are a gem, even if not everyone realise it as yet!

Quote of the day (even though it's sad): Off-form is infectious at Arsenal :(

Our idea of Holiday...

is full-time lazing around.

My parents are back! weeee!

When Arsenal is very much part of your family...

I was having a late lunch with a colleague when I received a call from my brother,

Bro: Hey, you had lunch?
Me: Yeap, I'm actually eating now. Catch you in 15 mins. Is there anything important?..
Bro: *chuckles* I've got something funny to tell you.

15 mins later

Me: Hello, what is it you want to tell me?
Bro: I was sweeping the floor while singing the Adebayor song (He is clearly in a state of euphoria over the win but Ade does not even feature over the weekend) than Nyaii (my grandma) says " Sudah lah Ahmad, asyik nyanyi lagu Adebayor aje. Dah lah hitam kilat, rambot panjang tocang-tocang..."....Aku terperanjat sey Nyaii kenal Adebayor... hahahah aku ckp "Rambot dia mana tocang2..??"...Nyaii jawab "Ah, sekarang dia dah potong rambot dulu rambot dia tocang2 lepas tu dia ikat"..... tak leh angkat sey, Nyaii pon kenal Adebayor rupernyer!
Me: Lol!

It must have been the ritual weekend nights when she join us for a dose of football, I think grandma prefers footie to any english movies we always watch as it is much easier for her to comprehend.

I think my grandma rocks. heh.

Will there be sunshine when we reach the end?

I think the talk of "Arsenal is back!" is a tad premature, we will see how this gunners do in the next coupla games.

Meanwhile, here's hoping more goals from Nasri in times to come.

Hey bro, thanks for convincing me to stay put and make sure I still sane admist the anxiety.

Keep Faith.

Me, the alleged fashion victim

I don't like to get touchy over trivial things but some things like being called "Fashion Victim" annoys the hell out of me. Call me that when the word 'trend' cease its existent. OK?. Can?...tsK.

Crestfallen

Enduring 2 hours of witnessing your own team self-destructing twice in a week is a bit much to take. I have before fell asleep or conveniently get distracted when we were crap out there, but isn't it too soon to step on banana peel? I'm used to the gut in my throat feeling that it's numb right now.

I am sad at the current state of the team.

At this point, I have ran out of reasons to stay optimistic. Coming back are the days where matches are followed with emotions switched off.

Please no more of those post/pre match interviews of we are united, we are young team and learning... blah blah blah. No one is going to buy it.

It's getting a bit old and repetitive.

p/s: Shoes are LOVE!

Tales of Shoes and me

I think shoes are LOVE.

I can't stop thinking of that white canvas keds that wld have been perfect to wear with my polka dottie skirt.

Never have I imagined to be the next Imelda Marcos cos I am more of a watchaphile than a shoephile but eversince I am on a roll.

:)

Fluff entry...

LMAO

Several things that tickles me.

• My brother: What my family and I still can't quite comprehend is how my quiet brother has grown up to be quite a joker. We don't know where he get his funny bones from but the queer bit abt it he only lets out this joker persona in immediate family company or some of our closer cousins.
• Arseblogger: No doubt, I read his blog almost everyday, no neccesarily agreeing to everything BUT I like the way he delivers sad news in a crazy funny way.
• Sheldon Mopes: I can watch this 3865825 times and still thinks it's funny.
• Bujang Lapoks Classic: I think everyone else will agree with me, you can never go wrong with this one.
• Sugar: When high on sugar, I do a giggle-a-minute. According to my friends
• Pipi's mum: Her mom has got to be one of the humorous ladies I known.

On various front.

Hari Raya: I am done and over with it. I had fun while it lasted. Nothing to reflect upon, cos seriously it's a bit monotonous for me, every year is same ol' same ol'. Accumulate mistakes through out the year and seek forgiveness for the entire month. Bleargh! Here's to the next Ramadhan.

Arsenal: *wakes up from deep slumber* Welcome back, you wounded soldiers! Internationals games are similar to seeing your family members going for war (Not that I have experienced that, but I think I can simulate the feelings after the number of war movies I watched thus far)...let's count the number of war casualities we have suffered.

Food: Mango Sago from Dessert Hut is the works!

Global Recession: Pay Cuts seems imminent.

Shopping: There's loads of SALES lately and it's not even GSS.

Enviroment: I've imposed a rule of 3 days a week sleeping without air-con.

Money: As per my point above, a 20% percent increase on the utilities bill is quite a bit.

Transport: NinaBuay, increase like nobody's business! Cut down on cabs and buses. Walk! if have to. Best is to hibernate at home.

Work: I have tons of researching and things to do but I rather compose a blog entry. Eeeps! A meeting on monday morning...

Tough lessons in life.

I lost my wallet last friday.

Apart from the neccesary cards, I had $200+ of cash in it.

As you can tell, I am quite affected because Syawal is around the corner and the money was meant for someone and the rest of it is not mine but to be paid for something. I think of all the hassle of having to re-do all the cards.

The wallet was only over a month old, a birthday gift from my best friend.

After the iftar meet up. I took long time to get home. I took an hour to walk home when usually I need a quarter of that to reach home.

I know it is my fault for being careless. I really start to wonder if 'CARELESS' is my middle name. I emotionally kicked myself for being so foolish and grew sadder as I contemplate why such fate befall on me as I hold in high esteem of not taking what is not mine but my sensible thoughts (yah right!) starts to set in and i figured the world doesn't work that way.

There some things that I meant to do, which I never got around to do, due to reasons I myself can't explain! I deserved this wake up call as I did not carry out my intentions when I should have done and no matter how upsetting it was. I felt I throughly deserved it. And if there was nothing uncovered. Things are never meant to be.

Arsenal has to top up my misery by putting up a lackadaisacal display. Needless lost and 3 points lost.

Update: I found my wallet. The librarian found it actually. Alhamdullilah.

Heroic Rendevous.

Gosh! The weekend went by so fast. I still haven't get down to completing my checklist.

My room is a pig sty complete with cobwebs and 1cm thick of dust. I really have no idea when is a good time to get down and scrub the entire room when I'm still stuck with neverending wardrobe sorting.

What a pleasant football week! The earlier game was kinda exciting and Pool won, this has to be the long awaited win over United by Rafa. We won 4-0, impressive I must say by looking at the scoreline but Blackburn is clearly a pale shadow of their thugsy selves. I thought we did well, an early goal help to settle the nerves. I still think Ade is fucking lazy but he scores 3 goals. So I am not going to complain but I just hate the fact that we started singing his song the moment he scores. pfft.

Why does it always rain on me?

Xabi Alonso did not come to the Grove.

AW is sticking to this current team.

It would be nice to have someone who strikes fear in the hearts of opponents in the middle of the field.

Arsene, you will need a full metal alchemist to partner Cesc lah.

We all know how horrifiying can be without Cesc.

I wonder...

The short time span or is it me? but I can't help feeling the time between this Ramadhan and the last seems like a very short time. I was very ill prepared for this Ramadhan... ermm, I normally embraced it with much gusto (ie. mad housekeeping rampage, overzealous planning of iftar dates throughout the Ramadhan). As I lay on my bed pondering (when I really should be terawikh-ing) what should I do to make this Ramadhan a better Ramadhan than the previous one. I know I have been slacking in terms of ibadah and last year's was particularly the worst of the last few Ramadhans I had.

Anyway, it's still not too late to make it a good Ramadhan. I hope to complete what I set for myself. And may Allah grant me the strength and resolute I need to fulfill my target. Insya Allah. Amiin.

To all,
Selamat Maju Jaya sambil menunaikan ibadah puasa. :p

*zap*
On Arsenal front.
I think we need a cover. Some sort of cover.

Swiss Beaver on loan.

I think we just rid ourselves of a top player + pleasant individual.
:(

20-08-2008

Heh, nice number eh?

Had cake for breakfast yesterday, no thanks to that someone who shouted "It's Ismiati's Birthday today!"... tsk tsk tsk... i was trying to stay incognito ya'll.

Anyway, I had a pleasant birthday lunch with my colleagues. The sweetest bunch of folks I've met. I stuffed myself silly and to top it all up, I even had 2 ice cream sundaes to finish!

My birthday dinner was with Kakak Yanni, she make me choose my present (which I heart very much!*sniffs it* THANKS!*hugs*) and gave me a treat at ayam Ojolali. Hah simple affair kan... we wanted to have black pepper stingray at Fish & Co. but it's sold out and I don't want anything else on the menu.

I decided to skip the dessert/cake part of the dinner cos I had too much of them during lunch and I rather we wait for Azmi as well and go crazy with the goodies. HAKHAKHAKHA

I dragged Kakak Yanni to Mustafa to meet up with my parents and we all head home. Yeay! Will be having birthday treat with my family on friday instead, to celebrate the Dad's.

To all the birthday wishes : Thank you so much! I appreciate it. My birthday may be over but presents receiving is still not over yet, so keep them coming in... hahaha.. shameless, I know!

No time to day dream...

As I was rushing through my work. I took a long look at my Calendar and then at my Arsenal wallpaper. Clearly, zoning out.

I recapped Clichy and Nasri hugging each other after the weekend's game and I daydreamed of them overlapping runs together with Martin's strong voice saying "Arsenal left side has the lethal quality to break down any defence".

And I smiled wide. WIDER...before I realised I still haven't finished with my website! Arrgh!

I've got an offline msg today from a friend with a msg "Arsenal not that fantastic leh"

Refusing to go on a full rebuttal, I replied "Some of you will never understand..."

I feel more at ease now, just enjoying as it goes cos it's still early in the season.

My wishlist.

In recent years, I have mellowed down my sheer shamelessness by stop publicizing my birthday as much as I usually do. I normally requests specific present from my closest friends and that's that. I prefer it that way, as I get what I want/need.

Anyway, in light of current gloomy mode and a more challenging birthday coming ahead.
I present you my wishlist:

1. I need a new watch. Yes, I need a new brown leather watch, to stop me from borrowing my bro's. I don't mind an IWC, really!
2. Strange Days on Planet Earth DVD
3. A new wallet cos someone says that it looks like a Nasi Lemak wrapper, anyway that someone will most probably be getting me a new one.
4. Boots. I need proper cool boots.
5. A new pair of Birks.
6. Chuck Taylors, black ones please!
7. A really good book (Sorry! Too many titles to list)
8. A new copy of 'Fever Pitch'. Lost mine!
9. LOTR DVDs cos I loaned my old ones to an ex colleague and I've never see them again!
10. A new pair of speckies.

Here's hoping that I save enough moolahs to get most things listed before my next birthday.

I don't mind...

if Xabi Alonso were to join Arsenal.

I think he has what it takes to complete the Arsenal midfield, partnering Cesc and the ability to assimilate into the Arsenal's style. I like his passing range and yeap he can tackle and do long range shooting.

But, his $18M might be a deterrent factor and he'll be atypical Wenger's signing.

If we can't get our hands on Xabi, please let SONG be the partner for Cesc. Pls Pls Pls!
I don't mind Denilson but he'll be behind Song in terms of pecking order. And I will never let Diaby anywhere near the first team until he learns how to tackle properly and doesn't take 1826498873467 years before passing the ball or rather develop some sort of brain mechanism to understand WHEN to pass the ball and WHEN keep it. Selfish players ranked high in my pet peeves list. I find anyone that refuses to pass, when their team mates are in better positions and do it as their last resort are numbskulls, who does not understand the very concept of playing football. If you are so into individualistic trick pony skillz, try picking up tennis or badminton because football is a TEAM sport. READ THIS: TEAM SPORT. You work as a blardey team. Please note how frustrating for it for your team mates screaming for the ball when they run into better positions, when you obviously being a donkey, tries to squeeze your way between 2 towering blocks. Please do not FOOL yourself into a falsified grandeur of being the next Diego Maradona or Pele, we're not in 1986 ya'll!

Rarrgh!

Auld Lang Syne

My Cutestfren intern finally reached the last day of her internship at my workplace, she left last Friday. The room has gotten considerably quieter and I can't seem to find anyone else to get away and have a chat with. I miss bullying her and I guess no more 'HAPPY' meals for lunch. :(

Anyway,
I know this is too early to say but all looks pretty bleak in various front.

When the day comes

for Cesc to leave Arsenal. Let him leave in a respectable fashion.

Pls do not be another cunt like Hleb is right now.

I liked him when the chips are down, when ppl were questioning his stature, his contribution, his reluctance to shoot or his erratic form. And he turned out to be a grade 1 cunt. sheesh!

I was watching the ADIDAS advert when Mourinho mentioned towards end of the commercial, "If anyone in the game...dream to be a top player, but I think it's more important to be a top man"... How I wish I could send that video to Hleb with the neccessary keywords magnified.

Anyway,
I can't wait for the new season, nevermind that our current squad may be as thin and waif as kleenex tissue paper. Play with your hearts, boys. Rest assured, it will be much appreciated...

I don't want a MAJOR signings, I want more of Sagna(s) and Eduardo(s). Dream signings. Less noise, big impact.

For the longest time, I've missed Pires. I still think Arsenal lacked that unassuming (in a good way) persona when Pires left. I hope the new signings filled us in on where we lacked. And more rebound goals ala Pires pls! Thanksverymuch!

Passwords!

I am blardey screwed cos I forgotten which of my 1001 passwords is the key to access an important document. And they allow 2 blardey tries.

Oh somebody, shoot me pls!

We're on sale.

Although, I never quite understood about his displays. Lackadaisacal at times, yet silently effective on his better days and inspirational in some. You can't fault the man to have a pleasant character and his highly professional attitude. None of that moaning groaning.

Gdbye Gilbs! We will miss your 'zen' on the pitch!

OMG! I feel like we're having a garage sale of sorts.

Belarussian Fox no more!

I seriously would have been slightly sadden if he had not cause the needless media circus noise and lame excuses but anyway he was a joy on his best days.

Arsene,

ROQUE pls! *grins*

Make Cesc Captain!

I was reading Arseblog and I could weep when I imagine Cesc lifting up the trophies Arsenal are going to win. I think there is no questioning his dedication and commitment right now.

I am launching an unofficial Make Cesc the Captain Campaign, something I feel strongly about. And if any obscure reader wants to be part of this cause. Drop me a comment. I will send a BIG ASS Badge for you to wear everyday. :)

Outrage!

I thought Iker Casillas winning player of the tournament would be a more justifiable choice rather than Xavi. :(

Congratulations La Furia Roja!

I felt so happy for Cesc, I think my chest could burst!

I was VERY gutted when he got substituted, wouldn't you when you see that crestfallen look? I thought he was marked out of the match but he created space for his other midfielders to exploit. Even then he did made a few defence splitting passes...

So, I got really pissed cos I wanted to see more goals, that are Cesc's inspired ones. I believe he could have made that impact. Alas, that was not to happen.

I'm just glad Spain won. I wouldn't want another Cesc's crying episode and they truly deserved it this time, Spain has grown strength to strength. Kudos to their defence for working as a solid unit as the competition progresses. This has been one of the best euro cup finals.

As for Cesc, this has been his 2nd major cup tournament for his country and at 21 years of age. I believe there's more to go :)

Sometimes, we forgot how young he is, cos he seems to be playing for Arsenal since forever. And that matured displays doesn't help either. This morning as my entire family witnessed the Spain's celebration, as we watch Cesc prancing about like a human jumping bean. My mom remarked that he is still a boy despite all that jazz.

Lastly,
Happy 24th Birthday Hey Nostradamus!
And wow, what a celebration Spain has gotten for you as a present. I believe it's their way of repaying for sticking your neck out prior to the tournament predicting them as winners.
I've read what happened over there, I hope it clears out soon and the truth prevails.
Speak to you soon!

It ain't over...

2 obstacles coming up, Cesc! Be good!

Anyway, I'm back from Langkawi... had a splendid time, although I still prefer my trip to Rawa Island. Shopping and beach holiday MIXED doesn't really suit me. Anyone who has plans to visit Langkawi should ride on the Cable Car to Mt. Mat Cincang, it has a suspension bridge at the summit where you can view the coastal waters and the green jungle lush... Such a breathtaking awesome view ok! (Google it!) Beware: Definitely not for those fear of heights!

And I LOVE Waterfalls.. Love them! Love them! Love them!
The refreshing feeling submerged in icy cold waters, worth the perilous hike up to the waterfalls.

The rest of the days spent chocolate shopping, jacuzzing, jetskiing and soaking in the sun, sand and the sea. Strange, didn't get to sleep much during this holiday hmmm...

p/s: Yeap. gotten soooo tanned yet again. Another 4 mths before returning to original skin colour. :(

Brighter, Whiter Teeth!

And so, a continuation from yesterday's dental appointment episode. The Dad decided he wants to TRY the dentist recommended by my fren's mom's fren, cos she's the dental nurse. As expected, he TRIED to ask mom to follow him into the consultation room but mom was by then into her makcik chat with the dental nurse. heh.

The aftermath...
He was very happy with the dentist, the dentist did scaling, polishing and cleaning. And the pain is GONE he says. And the best part it only cost him $50!! And the bestest part is he has $200 dental benefit...Pain Gone and FREE!!

Then, he told my mom. If he had known, he would use up the $200 dental benefits every year.
I think this is his bestest dentist encounter by far, so he's rather keen with the whole oral hygiene thingamajig. My dear old man is so happy, you'll be thinking, he's grown a whole new set of teeth.

Remember, oral hygiene is important, please save your teeth before they decide to run away. :)

White Teeth.

The Dad has been complaining of toothache over the weekend and yesterday, proved to be the last straw of pain he could endure, made my mom travel down to Bukit Batok to accompany him to the dentist. Unfortunately, the dentist he's been to, had closed down.

This morning, he was wondering which dental clinic he should TRY. The thing is most of the dentists we've seen in the past have since migrated or passed away. And my dad is not the bravest person when it comes to dentist. I sure hope, the dentist let my mom to be in the same room. Hee hee hee.

By freak of nature, I love visiting the dentist. :D

Post Group D matches.

I am happy Cesc broke his scoring duck!

If Spain did not going to do anything to their defence department after this win, a pricey punishment beckons, especially if they are up against a more potent strikeforce.
Marchena was a walking catastrophe waiting to happen, he almost never win any of his tackles. So much for being highly rated not too long ago and apparently Ivan Helguera presence kept him off the starting place.

I still hates Xavi cos he loves to go round and round with the ball and thinks he's the football messiah when there's like 3-4 russians surrounding him and kicking his legs and ignoring a team mate in a good position. Why can't he just pass and get it over and done with????? Only EPL playing spaniards seems to release the ball early enough before getting swarmed.

As for Greece and Sweden, I was too sleepy to stay awake.

Anyway, on non footballing news, I've rode on the SINGAPORE FLYER.. FOR FREE..during working hours! yeahooo.. altho' the ride was nothing to shout about, I think the MOST EXCITING PARTS are when we are at the top cos the view is great (in some areas) and also when we try to get on the capsule, you gotta walk quickly as the flyer never stops. heh.

I went for a light shopping with Kakak Yanni after that and got ourselves "SISTER'S RING".. ahahahah... and I coerced her into buying a pair of Superman specs but she looks COOL with it. MACAM BUDDY HOLLY! ;)

Euro 2008 - The Group of Death

The first games from the group of death have been played.

And France was wayyyyyy atrocious. I felt France has more talented players than say having WILLY BLOODY SAGNOL as a right back but I rather keep our Bacary Sagna where he will be safe for next season. So many promises and yet, so disappointing. Domenech's team selection does not do justice to talents like Benzema and Nasri...What is that 'predator' like thing, that was seen on the pitch yesterday?

As for the later match, I watched bits of it. Boy, was I impressed. 3-0. I caught Netherlands match in their latest friendly prior to the Euro, was it against Ecuador? And I thought, quite a cohesive unit and pretty good but did not expect them to give the Italians a drubbing like that.

We are left with Grp D to play, but I kinda fancy Germany to win this year's Euro, having seen the matches so far. I have rendered most matches a borefest when my brother pointed out that it is the price to pay for being a goonerette. Having seen the kind string of passes Arsenal produced.

Anyway, Cesc is said to miss tomorrow morning's game. And I don't understand the logic of this, you gave that boy so much hope, gave him the ultimate playmaker number and then benched him? Ok good, just make sure he'll be fit for Arsenal. Everywhere else, ppl are on Xavi and Cesc are similar players, Xavi prolly a shade better cos he has more goalscoring tendencies.
I, however BLARDEY DISAGREE, no doubt Xavi can also provide that KILLER PASS, but Cesc could provide it wayyyyy earlier than Xavi, wayyyyy earlier before it got detected by the opposition. Isn't that why he was applaud for, his footballing VISION??.. bladey Aragones!

Euro 2008 - First 2 days.

It was quite a snoozefest... so far.

I had pledged my allegiance to the Swiss and will continue to do so, altho' it can be rather painful watching them for the first game ( I fell asleep in the first 15 mins, so much for my anticipation!). Here's hoping they do better in the upcoming games. The Portugal vs Turkey game was marginally better but watching Ronaldo and co. are tad too annoying for me.

I was anticipating Croatia's game to witness the exciting Luka Modric, I mean the bloke must have some class for my bro to curse the day he join the Spurz. Alas, it was quite a boring match as well, so I retreated to bed by half time. Nope, not even the pretty cute Kranjcar could be its saving grace.

Though this morning Germany vs Poland game. If only, we could have Podolski for Arsenal.
I want a blardey goal poacher! Gomez looks a bit lost in the international scene. And my love for Phillip Lahm is renewed. hahaha. I thought Germany lacks fluidity in their passing for some reason but improved when Schweinsteiger was brought on. I foresee them improving in the next matches.

Anyway, Hitzelsperger looks like He Beaver in Narnia. HAHAHAHA

Expect more exciting games coming up. I will watch both games for tomorrow morning. I want France and Netherlands to go through from Grp C, simply because I can't stand the blardey italians. Heh anyway, who knows, Romania might sneak in stealth! I once supported Romania when Georghe Hagi and Dan Petrescu are in the team, then all hell break loose when they turn peroxideeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

p/s: Is it just me or are there so many diving incidents already?

Congratulatory note.

My best friend got hitched over the weekend!

A bit of an emotional topsy turvy for me. I mean we sorta grew up together and knew each other too well. It's surreal watching her getting married, the day we have been anticipating for the past 2 years... after all the challenges and brain storming sessions, the wedding was a success.
I can't help but beamed with pride looking at the gorgeous bride.

Faresha and Salleh,
Selamat Pengantin Baru!
I wish for everlasting matrimonial bliss for the both you and be blessed with cute kids in the future. I can't say enough, how happy I am for the both of you, for realising your dreams and embarking on this new chapter of your lives.
Enjoy your honeymoon ok, I'm sure you'll have tons of fun!

Anyway, I've gained a friend, who is a fellow gooner ... so all is GOLD =D. Must make sure he influence my best friend enough for her to know, who's who in the gunners starting eleven eh.

p/s: I swear I'm gonna turn your kids into Arsenal fanatics as soon as they can utter "footie".

pp/s: I've always said that I'm not much of a writer, it seems that I am equally hopeless in my PR skills. Blah!

Prince Caspian.

I've watched it and it rocks my socks.

King Edmund <3!

Stub Burn

I am hell bent on watching Narnia today. No matter what happens.

Something to add to my annoyance.

HOHOHO.
A trip to the London Colney.
And they assume they know all about the Gunner's team spirit.

Fantastic. Brilliant.

We don't need sports psychologists now.

oh well, FARK YOU(s)!

Super Klutz Day

Spilled my morning coffee on my laptop. (Keyword: Spill, Morning)

Had to be taken away for repair. Laptop away for a total of 7 friggin' hours.

Spilled my HOT MILO during meeting.

Was told my built-in keyboard malfunctioned and I had to pay for the replacement/repair.

Sad. Here, I was trying to stretch my dollar.

Laptop miraculously recovered. Hooray. Alhamdullilah.

End of Klutz Day. :)

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I don't think I can ever get more miserable than this..

I HATE! I HATE! I HATE!

Offloading.

Do you notice a pattern here?... I will frequently update my blog if my brain has ran out of space (read: WORK), but I still want to THINK about it and I have to upload the information somewhere. So here it goes:

Out of curiosity, I picked up the paper today. And gingerly flipped it till I get to the Sports section. It has been yonks since I read that section.

I knew it! Reading the papers will make me unhappy *fold arms* hmph!

Let's not crash, glide in instead!

Hah!!?!! The harsh world of working life finally settles in. The honeymoon period is officially OVER. I think I may be the last person in the world anyone would entasked to do anything like copy writing (cos my engrish is horrifyingly atrocious). Well, hello! Look what just happened!*Gasp**faints**roll over in pool of blood*

Moving along, I think I may be balding or grow a crown of white glory in the next few years.
I cannot help it if I am born a worrier. And everywhere, I see 'rice' and 'recession' together.
Difficult times lies ahead. It definitely is.

New Policy

Now that fare evaders will get fined 20 bux, why not go one step further and fine smelly people who tries to get on the public transport. Yeah, some ppl, just polluted my morning air. pfft.

Missed but not always.

Mad Jens and Flamster had officially left the club.

It is a sad sad thing that Flamster has left us, as I felt he still has what it takes to improve himself further with Cesc alongside for the next 2 years or so. What a vast improvement he has been and I seriously think that his firm friendship with Cesc has helped to discover his best along the way.

I am not going to bemoan so much of his departure, cos a season ago, I wouldn't have cared if he had left. In fact, I find myself questioning what did Arsene Wenger see in this 'head'less workhorse. And with full of shame I have to admit that during the not so distant season ago, I actually thought that Flamster is one of our non-improving players. But, he did give his all this season. :)
How I wished he hadn't play up the contract stalling too much.

I wish the man all the best, except when he meet us again.
I secretly hope he turns into a bench warmer when he goes to AC. heh. Just so he could MISS being a gunner.

As for Jens, I think football has that extra bit of unnerving factor when he is around. I will always remember the number of goals he conceded due to toe stamping incidents before the corner kick, the top draw saves, the brilliant penalty save against Villareal that brought us to the final. Although, not the final lah, but that will define Jens. Cos he's so mad, you don't know what u might get! And of course, who can forget our no.1 during the unbeaten run.

As for my belarrusian fox (NOT!). The silence is deafening.

Expect 638465936x link news to Arsenal.

It is time to be frugal.

I have to thank the tiny sensible bit of me, for resisting the temptation from grabbing that dangled carrot.

I have to, I have to, I have to. As recession lies ahead!

Oh, and Happy Belated Birthday, Cesc! ;)

Watered down me

What defines me, is just a distant memory...

Nick must have been my best friend.

I always find myself dumbfounded when such questions are posed to me. Or remarks which I can't quite find a suitable retort to.

"Why do you like football/Arsenal so much?"

"Take a chill pill, it's just football"

"What do you gain if Arsenal had won?"

See, I couldn't just give an answer without looking like an idiot because what I feel, they probably would not understand. What they have come to understand is football... is well football, why complicate things and get all affected by it.

I am really a bad writer, so bear with me.

For the past 12 years or so, I began filling up empty bits of my life with Arsenal. What started out as Anti-ManU support turns out to be a long term love affair. By that time, my brother had pledged his allegiance to Chavski and I was this drifter football fan, any team for the taking, I had tons of Liverpool fans in my extended family but I wanted something to call my own. The Dutch boys over at Highbury, did it for me. I was charmed with the intelligence of one and the tricky speedster of the other. And luck would have it a certain je ne sais quoi (my favourite player EVER!) made his way to Highbury and don the colours of red and white. My support was reaffirmed. I think it is one of my best decisions ever.

As I go along, I occupy myself with arsenal when there is nothing much going in my life. I seek the adrenaline rush of watching football, to balance out the dull life I am leading. I seek whatever that I could not possibly have in real life in football. That last minute goal lost, that unfair penalty, to make up for my rather lacklustre life. For something, that has given me much joy and sorrow in my life, I gave them my support. A passionate one. No less. Arsenal is a loose interpretation of how I see the excitement in life.

And that makes Arsenal part of me. And you guard/protect/love/empathise with those who are part of you, don't you?

I know Pires or Fabregas or whoever would not give a two flying fuck if I was watching them or not, Arsene Wenger would never ever listen to my opinion and best part of it, all this people I am supporting have no friggin' idea of my existence. And I very much know that I am an exploited fan but I enter this fandom with my eyes wide open, so stop trying to wake me up.

After all that is written, I'm sure I still leave my readers not any more convinced but I did not write this to vindicate myself. What the hell. I just need to let some things off my chest. Expect more of such entries.

Moving on to non Arsenal related things, work has been quite fun, enriching and a totally new experience but let's not get carried away, I foresee more challenging stuffs to come soon.

Oops. I think it just did.

My heart just dropped onto the floor.

I could feel all my innards are compacted in my throat...

It's blardey nervewrecking?... 12 days of nerves... woo yeah, hello sleepless nites!

Let's see if I can stay awake for this morning game.

Empty Cocoon.

Talk the talk and walk the walk.

We don't do that, do we?

Gunners, just stop talking to the press about team belief and all that crap.
Just keep on winning. Actions does speaks louder than words, ya know.

I am sad.

I am sad... we DREW* with MILAN today.














*Didn't I tell u that a draw feels like a LOST nowadays? BUT we got cleansheet and we are going to MILAN with a clean slate.

COME ON GUNNERS!

Happy Campy Gooner.

I had a very fun weekend, I was over in KL to watch Arsenal with Kay. And yeah, Arsenal won over ManCity whereas Mancs and Chelski got held up to a draw. Woooo hooooo! Surprisingly, we didnt have any major fangirling session on Cesc but more on Phillipe cos he's too cute to be errandboy. I ate loads of yummy food. OMG! I love KL cos of the endless food choices. Eventho' I was a bit lost at Pudu Raya, I had company of 2 kind ladies from JB who stayed with me while waiting for Kay. Aminah and Shan, (not sure if they will find this) I hope u did well in the scrabble competition and thanks for accompanying timid folks like me. hurr hurr hurr.

The ride home was a a blast. I felt that it was money well spent, cos the onboard bus entertainment system was awesome. I never felt bored in that course of journey cos im browsing thru movies the whole time!

Kay, thks for having me over... next time, I have you over ok. We go visit the Singapore Zoo. hurr hurr hurr...

I have RM100 with me now and absolutely no idea what to do with them, shall save them for the next trip to Msia. We should have gone for a proper dessert at Paddington again before heading back eh..tsk tsk.

I'm excited at the prospect of ARSENAL meeting AC MILAN...

p/s: It's ok if you hate me, just don't hurt my fren, can? No worries, I'll stay out of your way, as far as I can from now on.

The Arsenal and me.

I love Arsenal. I really do.
About everything. Well almost.
They put me in endless agony when they play badly, but I find myself back for more.
And they catapult me to the moon when they switched on their sexy football.
I love Arsenal. I really do.

Stranger in every sense.

My thoughts are on the final approval of the job offer, occupying for the last 24 hours or so.
It is beyond my control and I can only hope for the best. What I have here is an amalgam of relief, fear and self-doubt. Torturous...indeed.

I finally, took a stand, after much prodding and encouragement that my world would not crumble to pieces if I choose to proceed. Much thanks to all those kind words. I really need it.
God knows, how far my self esteem took a plunge in recent months.

That aside, there are more obstacles unfolding. Like keeping BIG FAT SECRETS from a family member, dodging enquiries on the amount of dough I bring home and bearing that incessant goading to become a T-cher but I have to cope with it.

Ok, I could go on further and ended up bursting into tears now. I will STOP here... for now.

p/s: Blardey Arsenal drew. I have come to a point of being a spoilt supporter, a draw feels like a lost. A lost is unspeakable. And a win is a win with much whinging. A satisfactory win is almost unheard of... what a blardey shame, innit?