Trying times.

The floodgates exploded.
Shedding tears would not solved my problem.
I am at a complete loss on how to survive the upcoming days.
My parents are off to their mini getaway and I never felt so helpless.
I don't want them to go.

The Dad fetch me to work this morning, I kissed his hand and told him to enjoy themselves during the holiday, thanking him for the ride. He told me to look after my bro and not to overworked. I was choked with emotions, I badly needed them here. I can't look after my bro, when I can't look after my own well-being.

I have no idea what hit me.
2 hrs and my tears still on free flow. I have compacted my self disappointments for the past year and choose today to reflect on it.

Arsenal drew their latest game. =(

Pray tell me, how to survive December.

An eventful weeks just passed me.
Happy news, bad news, sad news, strange news. Loads to think about.
Emotional fluctuation saps my energy.

With the grim December approaching and mountainful of work to clear before the year end.
Things will not get better, I foresee.

Last minute winners are so sweeeet and emotionally trying.
Injury news are forever plaguing at the back of my mind.

Quit asking me about Xbox360 already!

On a good note,
Yanni and Azmi got engaged last weekend. Alhamdullilah! Congratulations eh! *grins*

Sorry for the incoherent ramblings.

Like Ron, I only have emotional range of a teaspoon. So all these happenings are overwhelming me out of sorts.

Ingggggerrrrland.

They should stop overhyping themselves and do their work quietly.

I wanted them to go through to the finals, maybe crash out later in the semis or group stages to end the tirade on poor Mr. Wenger. With oooh thhe Greeaaaaat Ingerrrrland NOT able to qualify for the Euro finals now. Expect the new ruling of quotas on English players to be expedite. Well, hello to more mediocre English footballers. Can we take Theo out of the equation? cos I wouldn't want that boy to be part of false grandiose...

pfft. Why do I even care laaaah.

Belarussian Fox

Neighbourhood #2 Laika - Arcade Fire

Alexander, our older brother,
set out for a great adventure.
He tore our images out of his pictures,
he scratched our names out of all his letters.

Our mother shoulda just named you Laika!

Come on Alex, you can do it. (<3!)
Come on Alex, there's nothin' to it.
If you want somethin' don't ask for nothin,
if you want nothin' don't ask for somethin'!

Our mother shoulda just named you Laika!
It's for your own good,it's for the neighborhood!
For the neighborhood

Our older brother bit by a Vampire!
For a year we caught his tears in a cup.
And now we're gonna make him drink it.
Come on Alex don't die or dry up!

Our mother shoulda just named you Laika!
It's for your own good,
it's for the neighborhood!

When daddy comes home you always start a fight,
so the neighbors can dance in the police disco lights.
The police disco lights.
Now the neighbors can dance! (x4)

Yes, come on Aleks, start shooting at the blardey goal.

Be on your guard...

and do not let them lull you to premature prophecy.

Media glorifying arsenal prematurely is nauseating.

I've been reading a couple of Mancs' blogs. Good to know, they are as nervous as I am. Especially of the gunners new found grit. Expect a roughouse tactics and MORE ridiculous questionable refereeing decisions. Anyway, COME ON GUNNERS!

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We took a peek into their lives, to understand why they are that way.

Cowardice Football.

It's been long aye.

So the acid test *rolls eyes* ended with 1-1 scoreline. We owned them. We blardey owned them.
It was unfortunate that we gave away that goal early on cos the scousers employed 'park the bus in front of goal' tactics. Cowardice football at its best. Totally expected of a top four club?...hahaha top four.. top SIX I mean.

Can someone tell Stevie Gerrard to stop being a fucking twaaaaaaaat?

And what a strike by Cesc, totally fooled Reina... woo hoooo! Brilliant pass from Aleks.
Damn, we didn't get help from Hyppia.

I am incensed that we did not win the game because we were good. Liverpool was pumping balls to nowhere. It's VERY HARD TO ACCEPT LOSING TO A TACTICALLY INFERIOR TEAM. Insulting even. What's with the kicking the ball AWAY whenever Arsenal wins a freekick. For fuck sake, THAT reeks of COWARDICE lor.

I hate it when TNP did all the stoopid polls on who will win the game. After seeing the majority vote for arsenal to win it. Makes me nervous and JINX-fied my team. Nahbey!

Manyoo up next. And stop the polling thingy already!

I could go on and on but I'll stop here.
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We went for our yearly jalan raya with the polymates, altho' there were hiccups prior to the day. It went on smoothly on the day. Enjoyed myself tremendously, drank wayyy to much of carbonated drinks. Thanks Azhar, for planning the jalan raya!

I've understand one of mysteries of life over the weekend. :)

*Sniffles*

I wrote a longish rant/entry about career ending tackles and conscience(less) players only to delete it when I should have 'cut' it elsewhere. Anyway, Le Prof said something about it and I'm pretty glad he did. I wish the FA do something about it. Oh hell I know, this would lead to more biased dubious refereeing decisions. So the onus is on the players themselves to have enough conscience not to end another professional's career. And my arsenal players are not spared too. I very well know that RVP has that streak of petulance dangerous kick now and then.

But to see Hleb getting caught like that. :(

Stoopid ShiteHub after the increment for their sports package are not airing Arsenal vs Steaua Bucharest. *pfft* BOO!

-End of football related stuffs-

Toots and Yanni, that Friday night was a blast! I <3 u guys!

Toots, thanks for the belated bday gift. hahaha. I'm loving it. ;)

I love thee.

Cesc <3!

OkDahBye.

Another win.

I love my GUNNERS.
Cesc is on momentum, a goal a game (well, almost), woooohhoooo! Rosa got himself injured, he was playing well in the derby and this match too. Blardey hamstring. And he was playing so well *wails*
RVP found his scoring touch yet again. Hooray!

I spent the past half an hr talking to an ex-colleague about Moanrinho's sacked saga. The fact that he called me up to actually get my uptake on this, re-affirm my football fan status.
It's good to know, I'm heard. sometimes.

Nura's showcase yesterday was mesmerising. What a talent! And a humble, sweet girl she is!

I'm glad I realised what I want. All thanks to HIM. :)

Buzzing Day.

I'm very bad at handling overly nervy moments and was a wreck prior to the derby.
And at 1-0 down. It had confirmed my worst fears. Suddenly, a draw is not too bad. Chasing a game seems to calm me down a bit, but there is something about this team that a come back was always in the cards. And hey, 1-3 scoreline. Awesome goals to boot! I'm still buzzing with excitement. hah! should end soon, we have Sevilla to entertain midweek and Kanoute is rumored to be in fine form (urgh! Ex-spud).

COME ON YOU GUNNERS.

Cuss Free starts now.

A reply to Kay's entry.

Nasib baik the game is shown after buka... ha ha ha ha. :P
Tak tenteram tidur malam ku kerana perlawanan yg akan berlangsung pada hujung minggu kelak.

I'm not tagged but I wanna do it anyway. heh.

Got this from Tuty
List of 10 people:
1. Pipi
2. Yanni
3. Encik Bakri
4. Cesc
5. Kolo
6. SendyLove
7. Kay
8. Tuty
9. Dudu
10. Nor

I matched the numbers to my current favourite gunners that has numbers less than 10. While I slot in the missing numbers with my beautiful frens. So here goes:

Who is number 6 (SendyLove) having a relationship with? He is seeing someone, but I don't know who!

Number 9 is a? (Dudu) Male Croazilian Mat Rempit. Ahakz.

If number 7 (Kay) and number 10 (Nor) are together, is it a good thing? Cannot leh, Nor is married. And both are ladies.

How about number 8 (Tuty) and number 5 (Kolo)? Tuty is MARRIED! And I don't think Kolo is her type.

What is number 2 (Yanni) studying about? Bachelor of the Arts in Tai-taism.

Last time you had a chat with number 3 (Encik Bakri)? Never before...

What music band does number 8 (Tuty) like ? Avril Lavigne?..

Does number 1 (Pipi) have any siblings?Yes, 2 cutesy younger sisters.

I woo number 3? (Encik Bakri) maybeeeeee... but need to do something with the hair.

How about number 7 (Kay)? If there's a male carbon copy of her. Definitely. heh. My favourite Gooner leh.

Is number 4 (Cesc) single? No, he's not. He's dating Carla.

Surname of number 5 (Kolo)? Toure

Name of number 10 (Nor)? Norzamaria Zainal

An obsession of number 2 (Yanni). Hmm tough one. Issit LV or her current obsession: Ryan Reynolds.

Does number 5 (Kolo) and number 9 (Dudu) get along very well? I hope they do.

Where is number 2 studying at (Yanni)? Surrey Rd University

Say something about number 1 (Pipi). She is my bestest still. *beams*

Have I tried developing feelings for number 8 (Tuty)? She is Tuty, ya'know. Hard not to love her.

Where does number 9 (Dudu) live? I wish I knew, so I could send no.7 to stalk him, and retrieve information on no. 4

Who’s number 4’s (Cesc) idol? Pep Guardiola. woots! Cesc would have been proud of me.

Are number 5 (Kolo) and number 1 (Pipi) best friends? Stop it siak. Why you keep pairing Kolo up?.. he's married.

Does number 7 (Kay) like number 2 (Yanni)? I think they are aware of each other's existence., but liking each other...hmm beats me.

How did I get to know number 2 (Yanni) ? She's the girl I chatted with in Animation class back in Poly.

Does number 1 (Pipi) have any pets? Erm... don't think so.

Is number 6 (SendyLove) the sexiest person on earth? Course he is! He plays for the Gunners, speaks 5 languages, reads Khaled Khoseini, Paulo Coelho...

Last but not least, packaging sucks.

Tension supercede.

I'm back from the short getaway.

Back with:

- A sore right knee
- A 'broken' left big toe.
- Several hundreds poorer.
- Several pounds gained.

It was fun. Cos the company were fabulous!

Ok, a beach trip up next, any takers?

Edit/
I had a pleasant Birthday surprise. And what a surprise it was! haha. Thanks a heaps, peeps!

I still haven't packed.

... for tomorrow.
Yeap, my things are strewn all over the place. Tsk tsk...

May Allah grant me the patience through out the trip. And bestow love upon their hearts.
Hopefully, I don't crack under pressure, cos I'm having M and potentially deprived of weekend Gunners.

I'm a FREE FALLER.

macam Aisyah

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/3112170.stm

Berbahagia lah di hari lahirmu.

May I'm grant with an OKish birthday. Ameen! Thank you for all the birthday wishes. :)

Pre birthday was a nail biting affair as I watched my beloved gunners wrestled to the ground. I think Rovers was short of taking out parangs to chopped off the gunners legs. I am disgusted by the style of play from the opposition, their unethical SAVAGE(hahaha!) mentality. Football was the furthest thing of their mind that night. And after all that painful knocks the outfield players had to endure, we saw lehmann doing his clown antics yet again. Please lah, benched him lah. JUST BENCHED HIM lah, ARSENE!

Aleks, pls SHOOT. Damnit!

Positives to be drawn from this game, we were equal to the physical challenges. Even if we were made up of bantamweight/midgets. The spirit is healthy. :)

But this is an Arsenal side much less intimidated by the physical nature of some of their rivals than previous models. In Kolo Touré they have a centre half as likely to give a good, old-fashioned shoulder charge as Nelsen.

If anyone could be accused of wimpish tendencies it was Savage, Blackburn's tumbler-in-chief, who threw back his head in mock horror when Wiley booked him
after he had clipped the heels of a disappearing Fabregas and should have been sent off for diving over the leg of Touré in a comical attempt to win a penalty. - The Independent, UK

Stressed but Happy.

*glee* some ppl are just so comel lah.. go see Honour and Passion.

Manyoo drew their second. It's not a HAHAHAHA moment lah, Karma bites you know!
And it's wayyy to earlyyyy to write them off but as G/l/e/n/n Ong says "savour the moment".

And Hleb scores his second. *beams*.. And 1 for Cesc too.

COME ON YOU GUNNERS!

Belarussian Fox

We won our first game for the 07/08 season. Thank goodness. Such a nightmarish start thanks to Mad Jens. It was a really mad game, and altho' its a blardey win, can't help feeling disappointed with some key players. Only a few looks set on this new season. We see a few drifting along. I like Hleb tho' he looks happy playing down the middle, come on, get in there and score more goals. Aleks, you can do it!

Last minute winners put that glee grin on my face.

P/s: Some bitch just marred my arsenal win...tsk.

Gear Shifting.

I do say the most ridiculous things to my dad. Only this morning...

Dad: We should have bought an auto car, there's traffic jam everywhere nowadays.
Me: BUT Manual car good what?
Dad: BUT it's tiring.
Me: BUT that's what make you a decent football player, you know. You have to utilised both feet, that's almost like a both footed player like Hleb. And there's the gear shifting and controlling the steering wheel, useful to 'grab' your opponents. And you still have to be alert looking for space. All that hand-eye-leg coordination...Waaaah.. That's like Fabregas. That means if I were to play football... I would be SOMETHING LIKE CESC eh.
Dad: No. You are more like Senderos. Occasionally clumsy.
Me: *ignoring last statement* Than those who drives an auto plays like Robin. One Leg kicking. Eh! But he scores a stunning goal with his useless feet! I think my theory got loophole.
Reaches office
Dad: Quit Dreaming! Off you go... *Smirks* *chuckles*

Disclaimer: This entry is not about taking a swipe at auto drivers. Cos I'm sure as hell that the lads plying their trade in the EPL are driving auto cars. And Cesc got his driving licence after he broke into the Arsenal first team. So my theory of gear shifters are better footballers are utter bollocks.

p/s: I can't seem to talk about anything else.

Wash your feet, before you sleep.

And plenty of prayers before sleeping would be good too.
Too many freaky nightmares, not good for sleep.

Damnit, I dreamt I had Fatimah Rawkers for neighbours 2 days back. Four of them!. One knocked on my window to borrow some salt from mum. And they float in and out of their flat everynight.

Must be my late nights, but hey no worries. EPL starts on next weekend, my late nights should stop by then. For now, I'll keep watching my toenails grow.

p/s: Hey, baru aku ingat. Tuty, remember that horror website you send me... that could be the cause lah.